മഴത്തുള്ളികള്‍ ഇട്ടിട്ടു  വീഴുന്ന ഇട വഴിയില്‍ , 
തണുത്ത കാറ്റ്  വീശിയ  സന്ധ്യയില്‍ ഞാന്‍  അവളോട്‌ എന്‍റെ ഇഷ്ടം  തുറന്നു പറഞ്ഞു 

അവള്‍  ചോദിച്ചു  ... "ഞാനൊന്നു കരഞ്ഞാല്‍    ഈ മഴതുള്ളികള്‍ക്കിടയില്‍ എന്‍റെ കണ്ണുനീര്‍ തുള്ളിയെ തിരിച്ചറിയാന്‍ മാത്രം  സ്നേഹം നിനക്കുണ്ടോ ??"

ഒന്നും  പറയാതെ  മഴയെ  വകഞ്ഞു   മാറ്റി  ഞാന്‍ നടന്നപ്പോള്‍  പിന്നില്‍   അവളുടെ  ചിരി  ഉയര്‍ന്നു. അവള്‍ക്ക് അറിയിലെല്ലോ   അറിയാതെ  പോലും  ആ കണ്ണുകള്‍ നിറയാന്‍ ഞാന്‍  ആഗ്രഹിക്കുന്നിലെന്നു  !!!

Feeling Good !!

After more than a year after completing my course am on to something !! Last sunday I had a call from a private tuition centre near ma place asking whether I can take classes for the degree classes there !! Since I am a B-com graduate they asked me whether I can take accountancy classes !!Dont know why but I accepted instantly!! I didn't even ask about salary or anything!!I am taking classes 3 days a week and I must say I really enjoyed my first 3 days!!I talked about ma frustrations in my last post but I must say am happy while am writing this one !! I dont except much salary from this "new job"!! But its lot more than salary I am happy in the sense that at last there is something to make my mind & body active and as everybody knows it feels really gud to be in the midst of things . Go for what makes your mind & yourself happy dont go for what make others happy, because we cant make everyone happy !! So better happy with ourselves ,everything will follow suit!!

Fed Up -Frustrated!!

I need to find some inspiration from somewhere pretty soon otherwise I dont know how my future will end up.No jobs, no peace of mind ,fully frustrated and fed up .Thats the condition  of me right now !! I fear that I dont have control over my emotions and purposefully or not I certainly did  hurt many people these days!!All the news am hearing is bad !! I cant find a simple positiveness from any event that is occuring in my life !!Right now I have decided to swim along with the tide rather than swimming  against it!!Dont know whether it will take me to the safe shore or not !!But one thing I just wanted to make clear is that I not all feel guilty of any decision that I have taken in my life I always did what I think is right even in the most pathetic condition of myself ,thats the only thing that makes me confident !! As I said in the beginning still waiting for something inspirational to happen !!

Falling In Love!!

Hi folks am back to the blog after a very long time!! This time with a very interesting topic ! :) Ha ha hope u guessed it -  "love".The most happening thing in the world love ,perhaps the most used word ever, so why should I not speak a word about it??How a person falls in love???The feeling of falling in love is of the most exciting, thrilling and life changing events. Falling in love can change your entire outlook on life. Falling in love can occupy your mind and seem to take away all of life's problems. However, falling in love can bring about a serious problem of endless heartaches if a person falls in love too fast.It is a mystery why we fall in love. It is a mystery how it happens. It is a mystery when it comes. It is a mystery why some love grows and it is a mystery why some love fails. 

Also what I feels is that telling yourself that you are in love, does not create love. If not all of the essentials of genuine love are in place, convincing yourself that you are in love does not magically produce those necessary  elements.Sometimes, hopefully at least once in your life - the gift of love will come to you in full flower. Take hold of it and celebrate it in all inexpressible beauty. This is the dream we all share. More often, it will come and take hold of you, celebrate you for a brief moment, then move on. If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you, be gentle with yourself. There is nothing wrong with you. Love just didn't choose to rest in the other person's heart.(this i have learnt from ma life ).But still i want to love some one why is it so??Well i hope that nobody doesn't know the answer for this question!!To free yourself from being the victim of lost "love", give yourself the time to  get to know and appreciate someone, allowing love to happen in it's own due course. Do not impulsively rush into a state of feeling in love. Seriously consider all of the factors that ensure a real and lasting love. Give this feeling time to develop. Only then, can you truly know that you are in love.Remember this and keep it to your heart. Love has its time, its own season, its own reason for coming and going. You cannot bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into staying. You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you. But if it chooses to leave from your heart or from the heart of your lover, there is nothing you can do and there is nothing you should do. Love always has been and always will be a mystery. 
BE GLAD THAT IT CAME TO LIVE FOR A MOMENT IN YOUR LIFE. 

If you keep you heart open, it will come again..

Abstract

Well it has been long time since i have blogged something myself .I always put up some useful links in ma blog hoping to give some insight to articles that i feel interested.(But it seems nobody is interested in it :)).But today I thought that lets write something myself!! To all of you out there I always liked to write but dont know why I cant do it in the time most needed?? Another reason is that I think (well its ma thought) that am not well versed in English ,I dont get much words to write (infact I even forgot  some words which is most common).Also I am not an expert in the philosophical side of life.Those who know me would definitely realise that I would take life in the most simple way . So expressing that simple life I think ma simple english is more than necessary!!Moreover I always liked to hear wat others had to say rather than myself.

Lets take a deviation :).I dont know how to follow a blog untill yesterday!! U know what i started following 4 blogs (3 of which is by women authors).Always liked girls who came across ma life being a  good friend was more than enough for me (well I was  misunderstood most of the times :)).

Another deviation well this its about a song i just heard today it was poem named saphalamee yathra of N.N Kakkad sung by G.Venugopal .Wow it was just amazing .I heard it more than 10 times today ; am hearing it rite now also.I always liked music and today it was the soothing voice and rendering of the poem that touched me the most.

Dont know when i will blog again but I will try to do it as much as possible.

"Heard Melodies are sweet ,but those unheard are sweeter "

The Workless Worthies

Hope the future of Indian politics lies in the hands of these people.

Happy - I am a Best Friend ,Sad - I am not a Lover!!

It has been raining here . Along with the rain were my hopes and memories of love gone past – of broken dreams and promises. “The heavens are crying for me too”, I console myself. Then again, neither the rain nor the heat of the sun can clearly explain what my heart has been yearning.

It’s sickening to dwell on the past. It kills you slowly day by day. It is uncertain. It is unsustainable. It kills. But I have endured all these – of waiting in vain, of loving unconditionally, of giving my time and of being sincere with my thoughts and actions. Somehow, it wasn’t enough. I am beginning to hate but my memories of those days paint a smile on my face.

I was optimistic. I was hopeful that one day she will be able to see my worth, my love. That we can both conquer the world and see the beautiful sunrise. But even before it has begun, it has dawned in me, that this is a start of a sunset – a mark of a dead star’s perplexing light. It has been too gentle and captivating but all we see are remains of a shine that once was there – a light that have shined years ago but isn’t actually there anymore.

I have convinced myself that that star is still there – endlessly illuminating me. I will still have to convince myself more and make myself believe that that star is still shining for me. For me and me alone.

But it isn’t just the case.

The other night, I saw a falling star. It was fascinating. It was blue. Then I made a wish, “Please let her be happy for the rest of her life.” My conscience was talking to me, “Why wish for her happiness when you can wish for her love?”

It made me think. I realized and thought, “Because I don’t want her to love me just because of a wish.”

I wished on a falling star – on a dying star.

But I am happy that you are still with me as a best friend .But dont ever tell me not to love u because that love will be inside my heart u will not be knowing about it!! I will be more than happy to take the pain of u not loving me because I want to see my best friend happy !!

The light of that star shines still, that I am sure of. But that light shined years ago. And it takes hundred of light years for a star’s shine to reach the earth.

And I know that that star isn’t there for me anymore. It was shining for someone else.
Pardon me if I have given more troubles for your mind but I hope I dont. I know u r good enough to understand my thoughts>This was simply written to speak up my mind as we always do.Hope u would understand!! After this am more than happy and there is nothing in my mind left for u to understand.After all its better to be a friend than  a lover !! One thing more I realised within last two days that I am in the best relation in the world   ie;
"A relationship without limitations"

Raavanan vs Raavan

Raavanan is better than Raavan: Rediff.com movies

Lets review the movies now. sorry this is not my review but by intelligent fellows who follow the movies in & out.This is the review about raavan and raavanan @rediff.com

Football - a Junior Tharoor version!!

World in motion - The National Newspaper

Nice article by Kanishk Tharoor on world cup football. Hope u would notice jr.tharoor too!! :) :)

YUVRAJ- WHAT TO EXPECT??

Harsha Bhogle: Here's to Yuvraj 2.0

This is a nice article by Harsha Bhogle .I think he shares the views of most of the cricket fans ie ; a comeback from him.

2010 FIFA World Cup squads

2010 FIFA World Cup squads

I know all might have a acquired enough information about teams @ world cup. this one contains all the players list.

its 4 u all the football fanatics out there.

India's T20 debacle a review by Anil Kumble

Couldn’t bat or bowl, nor make up their minds- Hindustan Times

This is an interesting article by Anil Kumble in hindustan times.The best i have read so far & there is no better than Anil to review the teams performance @T20 world cup.

Not on Twitter: Miss you, Shashi

The Telegraph - Calcutta (Kolkata) | Frontpage | Not on Twitter: Miss you, Shashi

Interesting article found in the Telegraph on Mr.Tharoor .redirected from a tweet made by him.found interesting opinion about him, therefore posting in the blog

A Flashback

As the title suggests am taking u little back means 4 years ago .Actually i was studying in degree final year.During those years I used to take tuitions for students in highschool classes .It was during those days that i fall in love with girl.well can't exactly say that i was in love with her because it was just an attraction towards her but i was damn serious about it during those days.Well the matter of the fact is that she was actually in love with another guy whom i know.And my friends keep warning me that relation.But i lost my mind and actually i said to her that i love her the 1st and only time i ever did say that to a girl.she didn't tell me any reply .few days latter she said she cant accept me .but i told her that i wanted to know the reason behind that !! but she didn't !!( but the one good thing caused by her was that i passed a computer course because i used to go 4 the class inorder to see her.)Coming to the matter after that i actually felt ashamed of myself!!" c'mon abhi u cant go after a girl like any oder ordinary boy do u??"was my thinking and i left that matter.About an year ago the same girl went away with the boy she loved (by the by she was doing her btech & her lover an autorikshaw driver) and obviously they married.eventhough when i 1st heard this thing i was amazed . but after that i felt respect 4 both of them for wat they did to attain their love!! during that time i thrown away ma ego and thought that i was lucky enough not to disturb their relation.but what hurt me was that about 6 months after their marriage the relation breaked up.The girl was in girl's house saying that she can't leave with him(wow wat a change rite??)some of u wonder how I came to know all bout this things?? ha ha obviously rumours and bad things will spread like wild fire!!In between i used to saw her occasionally but turned my face from her..

Now do u wonder why iam writing all this now.?? It's because last day i received a friend request in orkut!!guess whose request was that?? the same old girl !! what do u think i should have done ?? actually i accepted her!!after 4 long years i talked to her(by gtalk ha ha) she asked whether i have any hard feelings towards her !! and i said no (4 years is a lot for a man to change)i f i have hard feelings i wont accept her as my friend first of all!!talked a lot of things ,those days the things that happened ,about her life now ,studies etc etc!! Atlast she said sorry if she had hurt me with her actions!! well at that moment i thought that well everything has changed and myself has changed a lot .Getting a sorry from her was of litle important to me because it doesnt matter to me now .but one thing i felt was that i didn't do anything wrong to her and perhaps she felt that she had done wrong to me !! any way afterall now am studying for buddha,gandhiji etc etc ie; the path of forgiveness and non violence!! Inside my heart that i still believe that those things i done to get her love was one of the biggest mistake I made in my life .but still a little sorry can convey a lot of things and am just happy now because of that one word!!

A Month That Was!!

Well what to say I think the month of april was one the most  significant in Indian political system.IPL,Shashi Tharoor ,Lalit Modi ,2G spectrum issues .But one of the most significant thing was the resignation of Mr.tharoor in the IPL issue ,but the even more significant was the event that followed after the resignation.The whole scenario has changed Lalit modi was forced out of BCCI and the enquiry on IPL teams continue .any way it was month to forget for UPA & Congress in particular.

Talking about personnal things the most important thing ha ha was that I Started blogging more often ,still I am not exactly into blogging ,but i have managed more posts during this month than any other .Also i started TWEETING more often.Thanks to the time I sit idle in my home.the job search continues and hope to enter into some job or the other during May.Hoping to have a great month ahead .

"u know i wanted to write more about the issues discussed earlier but sometimes words dont come out often afterall am still a beginner in blogging may be i shall read more( ha ha that will be a distant possibility)".so till then i will blog in my own way"

IPL Franchise: High on hype, low on returns - India Business - Biz - The Times of India

Interesting, incisive look at IPL biz by Hasrh Goenka in Times of India Doesn't rubbish nor praise it sky high

Nothing

thought about writing some thing but now my mind is empty will try later...

Televising cricket is a numbers game

Televising cricket is a numbers game

some facts regarding the efforts put to make the cricket match into our rooms!!

a nice article by alan wilkins

the IPL -tehelka version

Shasi Tharoor vs Lalit Modi

http://tharoor.in/press/official-statement-on-the-ipl-allegation/

Well its money corruption and politics that rules the cricket in our country.It will get only worse from here onwards.

FEELINGS!!

I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out. And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart. And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you. But those words may forever stay in my heart-locked inside. Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know.

what i feel right now!!

"I WISH I HAD THE GUTS TO WALK AWAY

AND FORGET ABOUT THE THINGS WE HAD

BUT I CANT BECAUSE I KNOW YOU WONT

COME AFTER ME AND I GUESS

THATS WHAT HURTS THE MOST"

UNTITLED!!!

ok let me try to write malayalam in english !!

ok ithu valare personnal aanu strictly personnal.ennikku thonunnu ee lokathu orikkelenkilum pranayikkathavarayi aarumundaavilla.ee parayunna njanum oru exception alla.but athu ennikku thonnan kurachu time eduthu.we met through orkut started chatting and become very good friends and i proudly can say that still she is ma best friend.oru best freindine veroru reethiyil kaanamo??i believe that nammala nannayi manasilakkan pattunna oralkku maathrame nammude lifeum share cheyyan pattu.(athente personal opinion aanu).enne ithu pole manasilllakyittula veroru aalum ente lifeil undaayitilla. thirichum angane thanne.she knws my feelings towards her .but she still consider me as her best friend.i dont think that her mind will change !! but enne pole avale manasilakkanum ishttapedanum vere oraalku pattumo??i dont know why i cant pass that hurdle to win d heart of a girl .but perhaps i dont know chiloppol chilla kaaryangalkku explanation illa.athu pole ithum angane potte.sum relationships are never meant 2 b understood.if some one ask me who she is to me i will answer that she is more than a best friend to me.orupaadu ezuthanam ennundu .but entho pattunnilla.pinne its not a" painkili katha"at all.innele njan entho parayunna kootathil njan paranjhu ""ennikku vendi ithra maathram prarthichal mathi ninne pole enne understand cheyyunna oru penkuttiye tharan daivathinodu parayane  ennu""i dont know anything else but one thing is sure that i need her throughout ma life athu friend aanenkil anagane beacause friendship always compromises .i dont know whether she will understand my love once ,i hope she will but ente manasil ulla ishttam angane thanne kaanum.(ayyo ithu kandittu naale mudhal njan a friendshipkalnghu ennu vicharikkaruthu our friendship will continue forever).may god provide all the good things to her . i will always be your best  friend  and thanks for being my best friend .if anyone ask me to define friendship i have nothing to write but u

Finally one more thing "Most relationships are made long in advance, and are just waiting to happen..."

SACHIN TUSSI GREAT HO!!

Wow what a champion sachin tendulkar is!! yesterday he played the best innings in the history of one day cricket. being a huge cricket fan i was really amazed by the batting of the little master.actually from my younger days onwards I was a huge fan of sachin.not only me but almost all children  in those days loved sachin.really i follow his cricket.i dont how much sachin has influenced me as a person. a down to earth man .20 years of relentness cricket actually hats of too him .as a person who watched him in tv all these 20 years, i cant even imagine a indian team without sachin.there where other names during in these years that was compared to sachin but no one come even close "sachin is sachin " the name is enough.well i cant really describe in words how much I admire and adore him.perhaps in my older days i can tell my grand children that I lived in an era that belong to sachin tendulkar . i can proudly say that i watched him play his game.am absolutely previlaged to live in this generation ."SACHIN TUSSI GREAT HO"

A TRAIN JOURNEY

Well this post is strictly personnal.It has been 7long months since i 've completed my mba degree.one of the most frequent thing that has been occuring to me during these days were writing the bank exams. Well this time it was at Ernakulam ,24th jan 2010. well the exam went ok but it was the train journey back home that forced me to writing this blog .Along with me my friend was also there but our seats were in different sides of the train.So i was forced to sit in the middle of the seats along with 2 unknown persons.The one was a guy who also wrote the bank exam ,the other was the one that am going to write about.one girl well perhaps 4-5 elder to me(ha ha i found out it later)was sitting.ha ha immediately seeing her like every ordinary boy of my age i did many things to caught her attention.at first she was resistant but then i suceeded her in making her company. actually she was married and mother of a boy in 1st std and she is a central govt employee
(well i couldn't blieve it)well we bcome close within minutes talking about lot of things .she had an inspring look of her that i started admiring her.she give me a new outlook for me in many views of me . i dont knw to express what i felt during our conversation.but certainly i did like her .she didn't give me her no: (obviously she wont),i didn;t give her my no: too but i give her my email id. well she didnt gave her mine. but promise to mail me in future and she challenged me to find her on orkut(the search still continues).i dont knw wat did she gained from me during those talks but certainly i gained her a lot its a true fact.am hoping that she will keep me in touch (offcourse she has her limitations)