Saturday is the most awaited day in my life ,especially after getting promoted to the post of assistant manager.I have been posted in one of our rural branches in the high ranges of kerala ,bordering tamil nadu. So Saturday was the day in which I literally run home to meet my beloved one Ammu and our kuttoos,as we dearly call him.Our marriage was an arranged one but since we had a lot of time after our engagement ,we actually loved each other madly, I should say the marriage as both of us say an "arranged love marriage".Usually the journey to home was never a dull affair for me ,travelling 9 hours by both bus and train ,usually my head was full of questions like "did I forget something"or "did I buy what kuttoos told me to buy".
The exact opposite will happen while returning from home ,not sure why I get headache every sunday evening while packing the bags.I will be angry with somebody that I dont know.Actually my mind was never willing to go ,but my responsibilty and so called sincerity to the job was forcing me to go.Seeing this Ammu will come and whisper in my ears "why dont you take a leave tomorrow".I remembered ,she was like this even before our marriage ,if I was having cold or cough ,she would say through her phone ,"please dont go tomorrow ".But today I was having the key of the branch with me and the manager was on leave too.I cursed myself for getting promoted ,I was enjoying my life in a branch near to my home.
As usual after saying good bye there was a feeling of emptiness in the air.I waited for the KSRTC bus of 9.45pm from Trivandrum to my destination and I will not say I didn't have any company,mosquitoes were giving me a hard time in the bus stand.It was in one of those long wait in the bus stand that I started watching Her.I dont know her name,and I dont know why I started watching her.She was alone,away from all the noises outside .She was dressed beautifully ,had a feeling of innocense in her beautiful eyes,anyway she was not like any other girls of her generation .I thought and admired "well girls should be like this"!I guessed she was waiting for the Bangalore bus.After seeing her every week I become her guardian without her knowledge ,even without my knowledge.Is she was watched by anyone?Is somebody trying to annoying her?I made sure that all these things were taken care off.I prayed that her bus should come first ,I was tensed that if my bus come first,with the pray that nothing bad should happen to her I"ll board the bus.
It was another sunday evening ,after all the usual affairs in the home ,I reached the bus stand ,and the worst news awaited me there ,my bus has been cancelled .Like any other day ,I needed to be at the branch tomorrow.So I boarded the Bangalore bus,in which the unknown girl used to go.I searched the bus to see her but didn't noticed .The bus was almost full and since I had an obsession to sit near the window,I was terribly disappointed;there was not a single window seat available.As a one last try ,I went to check the back seat ,it was occupied by two men !! I turned around ,wait was there another figure in those dark sittings there?My heart beated fast ,I went once again and yes I realized those wide beautiful eyes ,between those two men ,half slept ,with emptied bottles of steroids ,around her clothes ,which was doing nothing except barely covering her nudity."Oh no I shoudn't have come here"my mind was shattered.
I picked the phone and called Ammu, my voice was shivering ,
"Ammu,
Yes dear
Were you sleeping ?
No ,what happened my dear ? What happened to your voice ,are you ok?
I........I LOVE YOU
Ha Ha what happened to say it right now ?
No ,Nothing you go and sleep , I will call you tomorrow morning "
I cut the call and closed my eyes for sleep ,with my mind saying these words to Ammu "Am Sorry, Am Sorry Am Sorry"............................................
ഇതില് എന്റെ എന്ന് പറയാന് ഒന്നുമില്ല ,എവിടെയോ വായിച്ചതിനെ എന്റെ സങ്കല്പ്പമനുസരിചു മാറ്റിയെന്നെയുള്ളു .
കടപ്പാട് : എന്റെ സ്വന്തം മീനുകുട്ടിക്കു :)
