Some Questions!

Over the last few months I have been actively blogging.Some of my writing skills,that I have long forgotten was back and I found real happiness in doing so.But for the last two days I was not able to write anything.Its not for the first time,but this time I felt that the words or ideas are all gone from my mind.The more I tried ,the more I got confused..I felt that anger and agony that once ruled me,was back in its most furious form.I didn't find any good in anything around me.The news that were flashing through channels or newspaper,added to my woes,because I generally give lot of attention to things happening around me.My sole existance was under threat,and it was badly affecting my work also.The question I asked myself was "Do I Need To Change"?


It is often said that the only things in life that are inevitable are death and taxes. Well, you can add a third item to the things that are inevitable, and that is change.And change is happening faster than at any time in human history.Change is occurring so quickly, in fact, that we no longer have the luxury of adapting to it gradually.I know that the future belongs to those who anticipate change and have a plan to respond to it.We’ll never be able to completely control change, but we can manage our participation in it and our reaction to it.

I was never been in an active form or say I was always within myself ,who give due attention to the people and things around me.I was never an extrovert,basically an introvert,but always tried to not to show my introvert qualities.I began to socialize very late,only after I completed my 10th and it took me time to being friendly with someone.It was my friends who gave me strength to pass through my most toughest of times.They didn't say or did anything,but they were with me.Always I wanted to be with someone,I hated the moments were I was alone.I always needed somebody to push me through,and I was lucky enough that,in each stages of my life I had somebody with me to give encouragement.

Anger,rather I would call it seriousness was always in my face.If 

somebody told me to smile ,it was very difficult to put a smile on my face.In other words,if somebody look at my face he/she can can say in what mood I am.Is it a bad quality afterall?To let others know in what mood we are in.I was always expressive,when I am happy I laugh loud ,when I am sad I will cry,when I am angry,I shout and when Iam disappointed ,I let others know that I am disappointed.These were my basic qualitied associated with me.Now I am receiving quite a few negative responses for my behaviour,that I need to change a little,to adjust to the corporate competitative world out there.

I was never a 21st century Indian youth,who loves bikes,cars,drinks etc .I was never interested with all these and never will be.I think that everybody around me has  became mechanical with their work and emotions.I found that human emotions sometimes or rather most times will have no place anywhere.Now if you show any human emotions,you will be described  as dramatic.Why can't people be themself rather that becoming someone else?Why should one need to act when he/she can express their emotions?Where can I find love,sincerity,affection ,passion in its truest and purest form?

And finally I am that guy who is   hiding himself from the centre of attraction,afraid of being mechanical,afraid of being changed.I will be never able to cop with the pace at with the world is changing.I believe that there are people around me who share my views and beliefs.So let me live my life in my own ways,I am not interfering in your matter,and I expect you to do the same to me.I don't know how long will I survive,but in the end I will be happy that I lived the life in my own ways.Everything will change ,well everything has changed,embrace the changes around you in your own ways don't be forced .I believe still there is a beauty in living in good old ways,and I am pretty sure that I am not alone in that case.